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Student sees self as a prisoner to homosexuality!

Editors note: This article was submitted to the Pittsburgh Standard asking the name not to be printed. The Standard accepts publishing anonymous articles with Psuedonames.

Homosexual Prisoner
For the Pittsburgh Standard

I really, really hate days like today.  It is the Fourth of July weekend, and it should be a time of jubilant celebration, of enjoying a day off, and of having fun. Up to a few hours ago this was the case.  Having met a friend of mine and being introduced to a friend of his, we decided to go see a movie.

 So, what movie could possibly be worth seeing on the Fourth?  

 No, not Fahrenheit 9/11 but Spiderman 2 would be worth seeing! 

 What could be more American than Spidy swinging from buildings? 

The movie was a rare mix of good plot, excellent character development, outstanding acting by Toby McGuire, action and a love story.

            I felt miserable walking out of that movie and wanted to find a hole to crawl into.

I walked out of that movie having been reminded that the loving relationship shared by the main characters in the movie is something that I can not experience right now: a relationship between a man and a woman.

            I became aware in my teens of my attractions towards other guys but it wasn’t until I started college that I could truly understand and admit to myself that I am gay. I have never had a relationship, physical or otherwise, with another man but the desire is there.  As a pathetic substitution, I turned to the internet and started an addiction with internet pornography that to this day I still fight.  I lose daily, multiple times.  I have only ever confessed this to a few people, those being the pastor of my church and the support group for sexual temptation that I attend.

Having admitted, abet anonymously, that fact that I have these feelings to a group of readers that maybe predominantly Christian, I would expect two groups of reactions. 

There is the first group.  First reaction: Love the sinner, hate the sin.  Followed instantly by the, “You can change if you really wanted to,” crowd.  It’s been my experience that most of those in this group tend to see homosexuality in very simplistic terms and rely on the change argument to pacify their conscious.  To most in this group homosexuality is seen as a free will choice, and for some people I wouldn’t doubt that. The problem is, I would suspect, that for a good many homosexual people out there that is not the case.  I also concede that there are those who have experienced a dramatic shift in there homosexuality, but the Church’s insistence to latch on to the ‘change doctrine’ and hang on for dear life creates a problem in that it tries to duck tape a solution without ever really dealing with the root problems. 

            The second group would most likely respond with the, “That’s the way you were created/developed in the environment you grew up/chose to be so live with it and embrace your sexuality.  Twist the Bible around, and play fast and loose with a few translations and your guilt free and all set.” 

Yet to me that position has problems too.  I do not want to just have sex with someone; I want to have a deep relationship with a person.  No disrespect to my friends, but I just cannot get that form of relationship from another guy.  Men and women are wired differently in both intellectual and emotional patterns and I know that another man would not fill the void.

So where does that leave me? 

 It leaves me typing at a keyboard in the morning because I am too sad, angry and lonely to really get a good night sleep. 

Why do I feel so trapped? 

I pray that the desires I have for men would be replaced with ones for women but that has not happed, yet I cannot really convince myself that just living in the world would fulfill me any better. 

Why do I feel so alone? 

It is because I cannot trust most people to understand. Most of you reading this have your binary polar positions that really get us nowhere. 

To the first group I say that you need to understand some things.  When I am standing in a group of Christian people and the word gay and f** is thrown about in a derogatory manner, realize something.  Not only have you just sinned, not only have you just demented and belittled another human being, not only have you lowered yourself down, you more than likely made someone else feel three inches tall.  Having experienced this many times myself, it is not fun.  Also understand that you can talk about change of orientation until you are blue in the face, the cows do come home and the cat jumps over the moon, but there is a long disconnect between talking about change and making it happen.  The problem with the change position is that I am not sure everyone can, even if they really want to.

 Does that mean that God is not working in their lives? 

 I do not know. I look at it from this point of view.  When Jesus told the woman at the well to stop sinning, we are not told, and I concede it is possible, that Jesus removed her adulterous desires and she returned home and became a model example of chastity and commitment to one relationship.  Stop sinning for her meant stop sleeping around.  Stop sinning for me means to stop lusting after other men.  For some it may even mean actually not having sex with members of the same gender.  But far many prominent Christians have somehow brow beaten the notion that if you even have homosexual desires then you’re still sinning.

To the second group, I’m going to just say this.  You know!  When you are quiet, when you are alone and you are really thinking or connected with God, you know!  And do not tell me you do not know!  I know that you know!  Many, many homosexual relationships fall apart because the partners cannot in the long term provide the connection that both parties need.  Short term, sure, nobody likes to be alone!  And hey, I am sure the sex is great!  But the reason that 90% of homosexual relationships are not monogamous probably would seem to indicate that most homosexual relationships are missing something that can only be filled by finding other partners.

I do have to say here that I feel like an idiot writing this.  I have learned over time that making decisions when I’m depressed is not a very good idea.  Deciding to write this may be a very bad idea.  But d*** it, I’m tired of being in this limbo.  I decided to start writing this after I searched on Google for anybody else out there who feels the same way I do.  Most of the conservative Christian sites that deal with homosexuality such as ‘Bridges Across’ appeared to have come into existence around the year 2000, were actively updated until 2002, and then all the maintainers of the sites appear to have been sucked into a crack in the space-time continuum never to be heard from again.  On the other hand, the more liberal sites appear to be popping up like wildfire.

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JULY 2004

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